I'm feeling happy today, dare i say... Healthy?...
I ate dinner… Kind of lol
Funny how what i consider a binge is considered a...
I had a dream i ate a lot....
I woke feeling bloated and miserable
bittybone: my goal is to be able to wear a bikini and be comfortable, but i know from past experiences that i can’t control this. “food is the only thing i can control, so i choose not to eat food at all” that is bullshit. if i could, i would eat normally. go to mcdonalds without feeling suicidal. anorexia is not a trend or a fad. i’m sick. So true, couldn’t have said it better myself
I found a cat today!!!
It really made me happy helping this cat and giving it a home :) i was taking a walk in the park around noon and he just came out of a bush. i ate a sandwich! I know that sounds ridiculous but I’m really happy :)
Took a can of condensed soup and diluted with two cans of water and added chicken bouillon (75 calories per cup) yummmm. Kicking this back with a diet Dr pepper. Oh yeahhhh
Diet Dr. Pepper
my new obsession :)
Down a little more today....
Down 1.4 lb. From yesterday. I restricted to just a cup of lightly sauced spaghetti and a quarter cup of rice with soy sauce and butter after a three hour hike (-409) which put me in the negative anyways after eating that spaghetti…. This is good…. Right?
The shuttle ride to my car....
I’m sitting on the shuttle at my university to take me to my car and wow, if that isn’t a trip to motivate me then i don’t know what is. Filled with girls: that have no business wearing sandals with those kankles Who’s thighs take up the whole seat when they sit and devour their shorts Try to wear size four shorts when you’re clearly a size 8 And those that...
Down .6lb. from yesterday... This is good... This...
i only feel hatred for my body.
So my boyfriend asked me to cook dinner for us…. W…T… F…
So far…. Breakfast:1/2 dunkin donuts egg ham and cheese wrap=85 cal Lunch: 1/2 dunkin donuts egg ham and cheese wrap=85 cal Lunch snack: 1/2 bag 100 cal popcorn bag =50 cal Total at 7pm=220 calories
Idk what to do :'( i feel like I'm falling apart...
I might not eat anything today. If i don’t stop four some coffee or anything now i will go from 8am to five pm without having nothing…
Help me please....
Help me please…. :’( I’ve gone about a year in recovery and I’m falling back, and hard! I’m so scared… Part of me is reminding me of how inadequate I’ve become while the other tries to rational. I feel so alone and closed off… Please…. Help…………..please. Either help me to get well or fall back into the habit. I can’t stand being in a limbo, i need to have conviction about something eng at this...
Giving up is easier....
Trying to not be this way...
honestly im trying it would have been easier to leave the house this morning without eating but i forced myself to grab a bagel and im going to eat it, granted i probably wont eat again for another 6/7 hours, but that counts as trying, right?
had to two bad days, bounced back only like .8...
I always feel like a failure when I purge
beach, beach, beach
beach, beach, beach,beach, beach, beach,beach, beach, beach,beach, beach, beach…. need i say more?
What a failure day
its getting harder and harder to focus on my...
i just have to tough it out for another week and then finals and its over…
2.8 lbs from my next GW
:) I feel so small right now, i think im smiling genuinely for the first time in weeks…
Just ran 2.05mi
todays net is 197 cals yeeeeaaaaa
Doing everything I can to keep from purging all that shell fish
The sadness is creeping in ….
Bought to get dinner with the fam
Haven’t eaten all day so the damage shouldn’t be too bad
just added myfitnesspal widget, maybe so...
family is getting together celebrate mothers day early and they want joes crab shack… omg have you seen their menu??!?? everything is like 800 calories and over! wtf! this is bullshit
Its just about 9pm and my total is 65 calories
Reblog if you're 20 or older, I feel so old around...
I didn't DARE
So around 3 i had a small turkey sandwhich at about: 200cals And when I went to work I took a cup of special K to munch on (I work in a restaurant so its so easy to slip up at work if I dont have something to munch on) at about: 117cals And that should be the end of my story…. BUT My boyfriend got this really tasty beer that I hadn’t had in a while and so we sat down to watch tv...