October 2011
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wish i had food poisoning again, i cant throw up...
ill hide out in the library and not mention it. nobody is gonna wanna be the jackass to pull me out of the library and studying to eat. yeah, gotta stay under the radar.
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Reflections on the anniversary, someone needs to...
Just when I think I can’t get any lower she picks me up. She picks me out of the pit and rescues me.
This depression started when I was 9/10 years old. When my parents ‘fat’ jokes stopped being funny. When the hurt didn’t go away. When I would stay up all night crying literally, so much so that I was too tired to go to go to school the next morning.
My birthday is coming...
Gonna wear my fat clothes that hang loose on me...
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We were out to eat the other day and I scratched...
I scratched my neck and I felt my spine sticking out through my skin, about half way down my mid back. And I totally lost myself in it. I couldn’t stop feeling the bones and bumps. I couldn’t help myself. And then he said “what are you doing?” I totally forgot that there was someone there with me. OMG I was just feeling up my bones in front of someone. But on a happy note,...
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Why is it that after having really hot sex i...
something i ate was bad
i ate some soup around lunch time and something was in it that made me hurl it back up about an hour later… felt like shit, but it also felt great
lesson re learned
you can only ever depend on yourself, dont forget that. I did yesterday and today, and now what? now i want to kill myself.
I fool even myself
Im always talking to my friends about eating healthy. “if you eat healthy and exercise the weight will come off naturally.” and I saw it with such convictions. The other day I listened to myself and almost fooled myself. My acting is good. But its the only way for me to keep my secret. I talk about the very community I’m a part of so they dont find out. I bash people who are like...
He said he doesn't want to deal with that
He said he thinks his ex has an eating disorder.
He said he doesnt want to deal with that.
He said he would have probably broken up with her because of that.
All the more reason for him to never find out.
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I haven't eat all day
At work, feel like I’m gonna pass out, n it feels great
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Because we all love those days when you wake up...
I work in a pizza place
The worst food that you could eat, the grease, the cheese and it takes like 9 hours for you body to process that shit and of course most of it stays inside of your body. But regardless, I have self control and dont eat any of it, i eat bowls of lettuce with light dressing just so its not so dry going down. I started to go down again. I wanted to be down another ten pounds by now but since the...
Anonymous asked: What is ur bmi?
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"Ive bench pressed 80 pound weights that were...
We were chilling and he decided to try and bench press me and asked me how much I weighed, I said 134 and said he wanted to try so I let him and he said that i didnt feel like it, amazing feeling, he picked me up so easily. AMAZING
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"I have just never been with someone so petite as...
If this isn’t thinsipiration idk what is. The guy I’m with sent me this n what did I eat all day when I got it? A tall caramel machiatto, that’s it. If I got this sent every day it would by amazingly inspiring
