January 2012
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Not weighing myself is probably the healthiest...
Yes, will weigh myself on monday and hopefully I won’t self destruct
December 2011
52 posts
I ate
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Feeling
Feeling good about the weigh in on monday. Who else feeling good today?
Now I'm just angry....
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He yells at me
I don’t like it, I wish he didn’t. He does it when I don’t know something, not even when I’m like joking around and or being a jackass. :(
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Omg
That was a hell a binge. Trying my hardest not freak out
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Surrounded by food...
What do I do?
Weighing in
I decided that as much as I feel like in going lose grip of reality, that I will only weigh myself once a week, twice if its a good week.
Everything in me tells me not to do this but I know that in the end it will be better for me and my mental health
Hopefully it won’t backfire. I’m so scared that next time I look at the scale it will say that I gained ten pounds, not because I...
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Why not consistent?
Why is it that when you binge you feel like ask hope is lost.
Like what you did can never be reversed.
You forget that you’ve done it before yet you moved on and continued progress.
You feel like all hope is lost. Like its the end.
Why can’t we remember that this is only a small set setback.
Why is it so hard to think rationally one moment and clear headed while the moment...
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Went shopping for pants today
I went to the mall for some new jeans. I got two pairs, both one size small. I’m determined to fit by the end of january!
I feel the pressure and I guess I’m caving but if its what I want then its what I want
Down half a pound
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So last night I ended up eating about a cup of chicken broth. a philadelphia roll (I know… sad face) and a quarter cup of a seaweed salad. Feeling okay about it…. About to weigh in and I’m scared…..
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Just stopped myself from a crazy binge... Thank...
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feels like im going to pass out
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fuck new years resolutions! You should have...
stop making excuses to procrastinate
for today... veggie straws, some toast with cream...
sigh
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Stomach hasn't shut up all day... Yessss
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My legs feel like they’re going to give out… A sign of progress
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Day two of only liquids and going strong… Yes. My stomach is growling, so empty, so awesome
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chicken stock, with a little bit of herbs and...
havent weighed myself in like a week. im terrified...
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my throat is burning, like it wants something,...
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only liquids from now till christmas
fuckers…
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i need to talk to someone
i cant keep it inside anymore. please someone wont you just talk to me?
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Green Tea
“between the hours of 9am and 5pm that is all I indulge it, I wake up, make my thermus and am out the door. Then I work at at that pizzeria till night time. I chug on water and fight the urge to eat. theres so much food everywhere though… its hard.”
everything is so hard
i want to speak out
but the green tea chokes me back
the green tea is always saying how good I am for not...
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delivery:
” I know I need help but I’m afraid to get help. I’m afraid they’ll think : She’s not skinny enough to be anorexic “
Anonymous asked: This is directed toward your post about not eating anything & still having bad breath, it's because when your stomach is empty, a rotten smell comes up your esophogus & thats what you are smelling, it's similar to morning breath. Just thought i'd let ya know, good luck on your weight loss ! (: xx
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I considered telling him...
we’re thinking about getting a place together. I feel like he has a right to know about this thing I have. Its bad enough that I have to deal with it but I shouldn’t make him deal with it too unless he wants to.
I thought about how happy I am with him
I thought about how much fun we have together
I thought about how simple and care free things are between us
… i thought about how that would...
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"why didn't you eat at the party? You afraid...
He said these things over the past couple of days to me… I binged in front of him after that, my goodness, I feel horrible but at least he doesn’t suspect me. Took a laxative the moment I got home
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Well we went to the beach for a few days ans I had to eat. To keep up appearances. God this horrible, havent weighed myself and I feel like losing complete control
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I ate before I came
The old standby by saved my life tonight. Fasted all day
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I remember...
I was in seventh grade at an opera house for a field trip and got food poisoning from our lunch that afternoon. I couldn’t stop throwing up and the paramedics wanted to take me to the hospital and I said no. They called my parents and I told them I would be fine and they trusted me.
The real reason I said no was because they were going to carry me to the ambulance and I was afraid he...
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These pants were skin tight a couple month ago
now they’re sagging, even around my butt, *sigh* feels good
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I feel so alone. Like I’m screaming at the top of my lungs, packing them with hot air and releasing a sound so shrieking that a worm would squirm and want to cover it’s ears, yet all those people that are standing beside me don’t even bat an eyelash.
I feel empty, like a canister forgotten on the desert’s grainy waves.
Why can’t anybody see me crying?
Why...
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Out to eat with someone, mexican…. God help me
Why is this a food droven world
bmi down .1 pts... :)
unhealthy weight for me is 111, my goal is 110, hehe
Lovely.: A Letter From Ana →
iwanttobelovely:
Hi there, allow me to introduce myself: my name, as the “doctors” call me, is Anorexia; my full name is Anorexia Nervosa but my friends just call me Ana. You can call me Ana: I’ll be investing a lot of time into our friendship, and you need to do the same.
You’ve probably heard your “friends”,…
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If 2012 is the year the world is supposed to end,...
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down another pound
biittcchhheeesssss
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How does somebody that doesn't eat get bad...
Doesn’t make sense. Wtf. I had to eat a mint but when I felt that my breath was sufficiently tingly and refreshed I spit it out. Fucking ridiculous
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Down half a pound from yday, feels great. Like it...
People piss me off
Stop talking to me, I hate you, so much. Why don’t you every go away? You are not above anybody
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Well, this its great, I’m completely disgusted with myself for having this disorder, I’m completely ashamed and feeling depressed, and I’m pretty sure my antisocial behavior is pissing everybody at work off… This night its fucking perfect
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Feels good not to eat, I feel at peace, the...
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I begin today
School is over, I have one final left, and I am once again fasting. Another ten pounds gone soon :) wish me luck my ladies
